There Is No Now So Just Let Go!

I haven't written in this diary for years.   So much has changed.  The beautiful Zendo in the mountains has long gone, and the two Rochis who ran it died within 48 hours of each other a few weeks ago.  One of them was my teacher.  She was the most remarkable person I know.  Finding the Zendo in the Yellow Pages,  a place that simply was serenity and peace for me was so very lucky.

In my life I have had very little 'bad luck' so far, but I also have not had 'good luck'.  Great jobs, great men, great looks, great charm were never mine, but finding that particular Zendo and the form of Soto Zen practiced there made the great jobs, men etc so gloriously unimportant!

We remnants of the Sangha go our separate ways, occasionally getting together for a 'sit' and tea and shared words.  Occasionally I take a two hundred mile round trip to practice with another group, but I feel it's a little unjustifiable!

There is a certain luxury in sitting with a group of like minded people.  One feels strengthened for some reason, and the social interaction is something we sentient beings seem to need.  But alone, finding small silences in the day is a continual satisfaction.

The yin yang symbol should not be viewed as static.  It symbolizes the continuous flow and change that creates the whole that mystifies us.  We are all so gifted at balancing through change!  We do it constantly without a thought!