I'm back at T'ai Chi again. Several years ago I tried very hard to learn, but it seemed that my body does not remember the moves, and no matter how hard I tried I simply could not perform a sequence of moves without following someone else. This does not work, because the lovely balance and smoothly flowing motions are ruined when one's head is turned frantically in the wrong direction to try and follow someone else's moves. I think it may have to do with my two dimensional vision and my complete lack of any sense of direction. I am not sure that practice can overcome this physical limitation that is probably nested in my DNA. There are things that come easy and things that come only from effort, and it seems to me that there are things that just wont come no matter what.Sometimes I think that Buddhism appeals to the lazy. No striving allowed! If one sits quietly and empties the mind, enlightenment will come. I suppose that the lesson here is that if I practice T'ai Chi with serenity and focus, 'getting good' simply does not matter. I am a stork, I will spread my wings.
